So in 2009 I weighted in at 258lbs, I ate 4 whoppers 4 fries and a serving of onion rings in a single sitting. At that time I really liked my life, I thought I was attractive, but in 2010 I decided I wanted to upgrade my life style and turn my life of something I really liked into something that I would love. Making myself look on the outside as how I saw myself on the inside was a big step in this direction. The first step of this plan actually came about because of an injury!
I hurt myself salsa dancing and broke my heel. I hated being immobile and I wanted to train, do something that did not involve my foot. That's when my friend and cousin of Rob told me in May 2010 about a new program that Rob and Andy were starting. The Ripped in 42 program. I messaged Rob about the program, and listed all the things I did not want to do and all the excuses I could muster so I could cake walk through the course but feel good about myself. Rob return message was "Man you sound like a pussy, I do not think you can handle my class." .........WTF! was my first thought, mother fucker was the second.
I hate being told what I cannot accomplish, it fills me with rage and it makes me put twice as much effort into a goal just so I can show the nay sayer up. Now Rob met me before hand at a few parties, and he figured me out pretty easily, these days you could say he was trolling me. He gave me bait and I took a big fucking bite out of that bait and swallowed it whole. Thank God! After pushing myself I lost 31lbs in my phase 1 of Ripped in 42 to make sure Rob would eat those words (not the best reason but it worked!).
I am sure everyone who has finished this phase have all felt the same...I can do this, I am a monster, hear me roar! 30 lbs was my goal and I beat it, slowly after the course of the last (almost 2 years) I fought with myself moving two steps forward and one step back. I lost an additional 20 lbs after my first run of phase 1 and I felt, I did enough, so I stopped exercising properly, stopped eating properly and gained 15lbs back...WHAT THE HELL WAS I THINKING? My blood sweat and tears and loss of sleep, I literally woke up one day realizing what the fuck idiot all that hard work and I am going to give up?
Luckily I did smarten up and I rejoined last fall and took back my life from my fall and today I am happy to say that I weighted in at 170lbs almost 90lbs lighter (105 if you count the stupid time) then when I woke up from a haze of super lazy excuses and 22lbs lighter then my high school weight! I want to tell all of you that if you have a goal, then you can meet it, it is not easy, it takes work. but If I could (and did) beat my physical demons, then everyone at HW can. We all use the same tools, its just up to us to wake up our minds and fully use them. I want to say THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart to all the people who helped me come this far, Rob, Andy, Jill, Colin, you have an amazing crew and I am proud two have trained with you all and I will continue to do this. 90lbs gone...pish that's yesterdays news, now its time to start this new life with new goals.
Welcome to my new life day 1, time to work!
I think the below song by The Heavy will be my theme music for 2012
